My husband and I went through a tough time that I really would rather not share what happened. Lets just say that he strayed and leave it at that. This is what I wrote.
Pain
It hurts so deep inside,
My feelings I can no longer hide.
I know my heart can't take much more,
But that wont make me walk out that door.
All I want is to be happy and live a long life,
By his side, as a mother to his son and a great loving wife.
But only his love will pull me through,
Just to feel that his heart is once again true.
I don't know if he can take this feeling,
But I don't know another way of dealing.
The pain has grown stronger and deeper than before,
I want it to be gone so once again my heart can soar.
If only he would hold me so tight,
And not only sometimes at night.
Feeling his touch makes me feel warm inside,
Makes me feel his love and his pride.
Talking about the stuff hurts makes it worse I know,
But keeping it inside will make me blow.
His love is all I want to feel,
Cause then I know it is real.
The only thing that helps is to write,
Cause I don't want to start a fight.
My feelings arent towards him he is my love,
They come from what has happened all of the above.
I want to make things just disappear
But that will only happen when I have no more fear.
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ReplyDeleteHello Kim,
ReplyDeleteI went through these emotions myself once upon a time. I am afraid the poetry I wrote was more angry and dark than yours. You kept yours loving and light. Nice.
I agree with Miss Nancy. It seems that each of us work through those tough times differently. If I were to write about one of my past boyfriends' "strayings" that I endured, it would be a combination of anger, distraught, and lastly, something positive that I learned from the whole experience. It would probably would start dark, anger-filled, and go through all the emotions of tears and such, then end with a moralizing wake up call.
ReplyDeleteI love how you write. Your poetry is beautiful. Keep your chin up! I hope that things are working out positively. Take care, hun! :-)
Hello Kim,
ReplyDeleteI went through this same pain.Still going through this pain.But I learned to lean to my children and find strength through them.
I believe that we are sisters from another mother(lol). Your poetry is so touching.Just as you, I'd rather write than fight and trust me I have so many things written.Keep writing and know that you are not alone. I want you to stay positive,because it will work out.